Yesterday was the first day of school here in my town. My boy is in second grade, and this is “old hat” for the two of us. But it was also the first day of kindergarten for my baby girl. That was a big step for both of us.
I don’t talk a lot about my family on my blog, so let me give you a little background. My girl is my baby. Although born full-term, she was a peanut and had a number of minor medical concerns in her little life. At 5-1/2 years old, she is only 29 pounds. For those that don’t know, that is the “average” weight of a girl who is less than 3 years old. And height-wise, she’s not much better. She is a peanut. She’s my baby.
I worried, would she be able to carry her backpack? Would she be able to get up on the toilet? Will she hold the line up trying to go up and down the stairs? And the biggest concern… would she be able to get on the bus?
I got her on the bus this morning and didn’t shed a tear. I drove behind the bus up to her school so I could take a photo of her getting off the bus. When she got off the bus, she hung her head and walked by me, not acknowledging me at all. But not in that “mom, you are embarrassing me” kind of way. It was in her “I’m sad” way. I stood and watched as she got about half-way to the school and then stopped.
|My baby girl (back to me) and her giant backpack.|
I walked over to her and noticed a tear in her eye. That is when I lost it. I cried for my baby and for me. I wasn’t ready for her to get so big. I held her hand (and didn’t let her see me crying), and walked her to her teacher. She gave me a hug and a kiss. I walked away. I spotted friends and went for a hug. And I cried.
Later, she got off the bus and played with her friends. She told me in great detail all about her first day and how much fun it was. I’m glad it all went well, because I worried.
It’s going to be a bit strange not to have her around, tugging at my shirt, asking for help. I will miss having her with me during the day. But she is a big girl now. I love her and am proud of my kindergartener!
Tomorrow’s post: Woo-hoo! I have free time again! (just kidding – about the post, still happy about free time!)